Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
I became really interested with this book since the first time I saw it. The premise was really catchy and it made me curious. I may have been interested with books that deals with issues such as suicide lately. It seems dark and sad, yes, but there’s something about these kinds of books that makes me want to read them all, because I know that there are life lessons waiting to be learned from them. My Heart and Other Black Holes perfectly fit the list.
Aysel and Roman are two teenagers who are both plotting their suicide. Being suicide partners, they spent a chunk of time together which made them realize things that might change their decision to die after all. I found both characters to be really interesting and it’s one of the things that made me really invested into this novel. Both characters present a realistic personality, which made their characters to be very relatable. They have such great chemistry together, which twists my heart in a way because I do find them adorable at times. And well, scared at some point because I really didn’t want them both to die. I love the fact that they did try to fill each other’s holes.
“Be careful,” he says.
“Why?” I’m not thinking about being careful. I’m thinking about one last push, of letting go, of flying, and of falling.
“You aren’t allowed to die without me,” he whispers.
The humor in this book, although it wasn’t that much, it was very much on point. For such a sad theme, it was really helpful to have something that will make you smile or laugh throughout the story. The main characters’ snarky attitude was one of my favorite things because it really made them very “teen”.
I loved the ending, although it seemed a bit abrupt and short, it really fits the book. The feels just punched me straight in the gut and I loved it. For a debut novel, this one says a lot of things. Being in the hype, it didn’t stop me from reading this one, since I tend to (recently) turn away from things that are in the “hype”. Moreover, this book deserves all the attention it’s getting!
“He squeezes my hand so tight, I can’t feel it anymore. I wish someone would do that to my heart.”
I totally commend Jasmine Warga for delivering such great talent in writing a heartfelt story. This book is beautifully written. It’s moving, touching, emotional, poignant and the touch of humor makes the book perfect.